I can't forgive you

yesterday i forgot
and now
the voices came back again
every single words,
the same rhythm,
the same melody,
flows through every single cell of my brain

I couldn't let go
when it was something that was so cruel
that pulled me away from you
that breaks down the trust in you
that ruins the security wall i've built from you
How could I
How would I
forget then?

I recall
your care
your need for me
your love
your patience
They all but look like a lie now

I wouldn't trust
I wouldn't drown
no more

I can't forgive you for saying those words

Never

不肯。不能。但已经。变

味道不同了
是口味变了
还是感觉不一样了？

或许
味蕾坏了
所以再也尝不到满足

也或许
是脑勺停住了
忘了从前的那个滋味

还是
大家都变了？

餐馆已经不像从前那么华丽
食物已经没有了从前的滋味
前面的路好像比以前漫长了
不再像从前一样渴望，渴望这一段路可以永远走不完

我不喜欢
真的很讨厌
现在的味道
现在的感觉
现在的滋味
现在的
自己

我恨 现在的自己
逃不出自己手中的线
走不出自己的范围
就像一只不肯放开手中的芝士的老鼠
像一只留在主人屋里，不肯去流浪的胖狗
像一只久久停留在自己霸到的树枝上的无尾熊

鸟笼里的麻雀
如果把你放了出去，你真的会比较快乐吗？

鱼缸里的鱼儿
把你放回去海里，你不怕被鲨鱼吃掉吗？

把胖狗和主人分开
真的

会比较好吗？



还有胖狗啊，你的朋友们呢？你都不要了吗？


[。。。]

Gucci? Chanel? SLAP ME!

I AM SO DAMN FUCKING stress with all the assignments tests exam etc etc etc. i am SOOO stress that my emotion fluctuates like the weather in Melbourne. i was even struggling to look for something which can make me laugh.

Just when i was thinking how can i possibly get rid of all these things to release myself, i thought of my blog. Not movies, not karaoke, and definitely not clubbing, YEA it was when i blog only i can really sit down and totally release everything.

I dont know.

I have a uni final year phobia.

I have no life. I need to work, work, work and work throughout the whole week every week, from monday to sunday and from morning to the next morning. i can't even rest/sleep. i've never imagine i will need to deal with my uni works to this extent. For the past few years i always believed that when you need to study, you study, when you need to play, you play, when it is time to rest, you rest

but now, when i need to study, i study, when i need to play, i study, when it is time to rest, I STUDY!!

EVEN NOW that im trying to relax by simply blogging and listening to michael buble's songs, my phone just keep fucking ringing, where my assignment groupmates keep calling up to ask about our assignments and stuff. SEE, I TOLD YOU, I JUST CAN'T REST!!

I've never been the GEEK+NERD type. i dont study 24/7 but instead i do it last minute. And i just can't believe that now i have to go the geek way.
you might ask why then i have time to blog now?
people, i am actually really tired now and i need some sleep. i have very serious headache right now coz i slept at 5am in the morning the previous nights. But just when i try to close my eyes, the phobia feeling just kept disturbing my mind and i can't fall asleep. And i need to release all of these out.

This is final year.

So you might say, well you are in final year as well but you are not as stress as me?

let me tell you the reason.

when you worry about all your assignments, tests and stuff, you worry about your future. I hope you dont say that im thinking too much. But think bout it this is my final year and next year, IM GOING OUT TO WORK and there it goes to my new TOTALLY independent life. i gonna earn money on my own, spend on my own and etc etc.

IM WORRIED!

I m so regret that i didnt go for any internship before this and this just keep disturbing me this year. All my frens around me had done at least an internship before and this had almost became a prerequisite for you to get a job. I have no working experience and now i realized how this gonna have a huge impact on my job hunting later. And therefore i need to at least score very very very very very very high for this FINAL year to compensate the fact that i didnt have any working experience b4. you might say that well good results doesnt guarantee you a job! YES I KNOW!!! but at least i have something impressive in my resume right???

Now that it's economic downturn period and I HAVE NO INTERNSHIP EXPERIENCE! who is gonna hire you?? wtf!

and thinking about it my resume is gonna be so damn worse than everyone around me that i know
so what if im active in uni organization activities? people have working experience!
so what if i've organized many activities b4? people have damn nice testimonials by the company they worked in b4
so what if i'd got very good results in my studies? people had been joining international business-related competitions and some even are in the dean list of the course!

here was the conversation that i just had wif my fren over the lunch :

I: well i really don't want to work in Malaysia. I wan to get a job in Singapore. RM2400 per month offered in most of audit firms in Malaysia is NOT ENOUGH for me at all!

He: (pointing to my gucci bag) yea, you can only get 2 or 3 chanel or gucci bags with that salary right? *laugh*

I: NO you can't even buy a single chanel bag with only RM2400

He: *roll eyes*

well SLAP ME! wat was i thinking??? how can i think of my salary in terms of number of bags i can get?? The thing is that if i don't think about gucci or chanel bag at all why can't i survive with only RM2400? The thing is that when it is ALREADY so hard to get a job then how can i be unsatisfied with that RM2400?? SLAP ME!

I SHOULD BE SATISFIED WITH WAT I CAN GET! slap me! SLAP ME!!!!

stress stress stress stress stress stress stress IM JUST FREAKING OUT!

GRRR... my phone rings again
bye guys!

the bitches-night-out =)

So here are the pics with the biAtch!! gals-night-out in The Curve. Wat a fabulous night =)

LOVE YOU GALS SO MUCH!!! *WINK*

Guys, do you know how to earn MONEY?

You like to talk big, think big, but can u do it big?

Guys, alwiz talking bout politics, business, future, money, but in fact, how much do u kno, how much can u manipulate, how many things that u're talking about are in ur control?

Funny, when i see you guys lacking so much patience, i doubt ur life can be successful. Guys, patience, capability, imagination, thoughtfulness are ur key to success. Oh well, i don't see them in your characteristics right now.

you don wan to tell us, don wanna teach us, coz u think we dont understand... coz we are gals, gals, supposed to juz stay home and cook, huh?

come on, jz bcoz we are gals, it doesnt mean we wont learn, it doesnt mean we wont know, and it doesnt mean we won't dominate.

Sometimes i hate myself to be a gal, a gal whose life get surrounded and influenced by guys' manipulation, whose vision is not as good as guys'.

But there r 2 things we dominate. Patience, and Thoughtfulness.

Oh well. I don't think you guys are that capable.

when i heard u complain, for example, about ur relationship so much.

Bcoz lil thing like this u cant maintain, lil character like ur gf u cant take care, then plz dont talk bout BIG MONEY.

And a gal, alwiz stays the last in a guy's heart.

Ain't I right?

Funny.

Funny when i realized im getting more n more demanding bout my life, not just being demanding, but im doing something for it right now.

Ppl tend to get more realistic and materialistic when they grow up, isn't it? Especially when you're more exposed to the cruel and ironical world out there. Pathetic, huh?

So, this is 2009.
well, i don't feel new at all, juz feel a lil older.

think bout it, stepping into 2009, im aredi 2* years old (well, quite reluctant to tell my age), im an adult now, completely, well not really completely, still few months to go. And there r so much things in my head now, and so it tells i wanted more things than ever.

i guess it's just time for me to become more realistic, juz a lil more.

i can't tell lies, i have to live better than now, way better. Stepping into 2009 makes me consider over again wat's actually important now in my life. And i wonder if you can give me that sort of important things in my life.

Maslow's need hierarchy. physiological needs, safety needs, social needs, esteem needs, self actualization needs.

Maslow says once u achieve a certain level of need, you will need the next level of needs for your satisfaction.
I achieved only physiological needs, but i'm aredi demanding things beyond self-actualization needs. And according to Maslow, only a small percentage of population reaches this level. How sarcastic it is, HA...

the more i see, the more i want. Don't stop me from competition, i can never stop comparing, it's my weakness.

i compare, i get jealous, and i want it all.

Chill, i'm not that scary. =)

Just how nice would it be if i can have more girls hang-out session just like the other night in The Curve with both of you. =) Although the consequence after that outing wasn't that good, but i think we just need more sessions like dat to criticize the world, to tell each other how strong we actually are (as compared to another species, you-two-know-what-i-mean, lol), to throw everything aside and be naively crazy for a few hours, and to wake those confidence in ourselves.

It's fun, isn't it?

I love you guys. LOL

How much i love them? more photos coming up soon
WAKAKAKAKA.
see, i said im not that scary. ^^

你要我们女人扮演什么角色？

现在的女人，往往都得扮演无数的角色，从扮演女儿，到为人女友，到为人妻子，到为人媳妇，到为人母亲，到为人员工，到为人上司。

女人，所承受的压力，不见得比男人少。

你们常说，我们女人所要求的太多，洋人说这叫作demanding。
但是想一想，你们何曾不一样？

你要我们自立，不用让你们操心，我们就得把委屈往自己身上吞。
当我们自立的时候，你们就会嫌弃我们不懂得撒娇，不够依赖你们，不够温柔。
你觉得我们都是你黑帽里的小白兔吗？

变！

自立

变！

温柔

变！

自立

变！

撒娇

我们，就是得在你拥有不同的心情时，扮演不同的角色。角色扮演错了，你们就觉得我们是负担。那，当我们委屈忍痛的为你扮演着这些角色时，为什么就不会觉得有负担？

男人要事业，须要闯，女人又何曾不是？
只是，你有没有想过，女人在外，要顾虑事业，而在内，又得懂得体贴男人，得做男人背后的女人。家务，洗碗，打扫，顾孩子，这些事务都往女人的身上推，而你，从外工作回来，就只是翘脚翻开报纸，或倒头大睡，连个拥抱也不赏一赏辛劳的女人。那试问，在现今社会里，有事业家庭的男人，和有事业家庭的女人，谁比较累？我们的苦水，要往哪里吐？

为什么现今的CEO，老板，大部分都是男人？为什么大部分的女人就都只能停留在high-level management的位置？调查显示，这不是因为女人无能，而是因为当女人升职到一个阶层的时候，就得开始分身扮演不同的角色，再也无法完全专注于事业。因为女人，为了爱，为了家庭，她愿意牺牲。女人为了爱，什么都可以牺牲。

男人以理性做事情。
女人以感性做事情。

当你们埋怨女人不够善解人意的时候，可不可以也为女人善解人意一下？

你不是魔术师
我也不是你的小白兔
与其你要求我们在你需要时变得温柔，不需要时变得自立，何不你们在我们自立时变得支持，温柔时变得感激?

为什么一定要我们变？

Sad New Year.

bcoz i feel unwanted

everywhere,

from everyone,

including those important ones.



Happy New Year everyone.

who should we trust, then?

y never blog anymore? ppl have been asking...

in fact i have many half-way-done-post in my draft.. i started off with some emo sentences of one or two, and then i gave up. As usual, i'm lazy, even to scratch my head and think of words that could express my feelings, so, i usually cut my blog off, with some emo songs, some fashion magazines, and an emo me lying on the bed, or by getting my butt off the bed and drive out, for some laughters, some frens and some drinks.

I supposed to be happy right now, i think, but no?

Reading thru the magazines, papers and some so called "international best-seller" self-help books, people had been talking about what a woman should be like in the recent years.

Independence, Intelligence, Selfless, Sociable, Love herself, Live herself.

The IISSLL.

Maybe i should add another L behind the IISSLL. Loneliness.

Perfect, confident, outstanding, capable women nowadays, striving hard to catch up with the modern-days-women-life-style, and very often, leaving something behind that they ll never speak of, they feel lonely, too.

Women's nature, so soft, so sensible, how can they be so strong that they wont need any pamperings or love? Smart women pamper themselves, by pouring exceeding love onto themselves, by getting the labels, by being selfish and self-protected, by not looking any vulnerable.

And nowadays, VANITY is even more important than VIRGINITY.

It is so disappointing.

who forces the women to move forward like dis? who left women no choice but to build confidence in themselves BY THEMSELVES? when ppl complain bout women nowadays are getting more materialistic and demanding, but think, who make them move towards this extreme side? why do songs like "I don't need a man" and "If i were a boy" keep coming out?

because of the species that is weakening years by years.

you can't provide us with confidence.
you can't give us your words.
you can't assure us with your behaviour.
you can't make us respect with your attitude.
you can't secure us with promises.
you can't love us with sincerity.

So, we choose to build our own confidence.
give ourselves our words.
assure ourselves with our own behaviours.
respect ourselves with our own attitudes.
secure ourselves with our own promises.
and love ourselves, with selfishness.

Because,
you made it hard for us.

*** There are so many god damn gorgeous people outside in the city, but in the end of the day, you just want to be with the one who makes you smile ***

i just love this quote =)

:'-)

我想笑

大声的笑
疯狂的笑
捧腹大笑

尽情的, 开心的, 忘我的

笑

只想

真正的笑

*** just a smile, i wish***

Because i'd got you <3

第一次因为气喘的邂逅

第二次在晚宴上的巧合
第三次在办公室的碰面

我认识了你

从一起msn到一起吃早餐

从一起吃早餐到一起上课

从一起上课到一起看In Brudges

从一场In Brudges到一起吃晚餐

从一起吃晚餐到一起逛街

从一起逛街到一起做作业

从一起做作业到一起"Il Dolce"

从一起Il Dolce到一起唱k

从一起唱k到一起BBQ

从一起BBQ到一起看wall-E

从一起看wall-E到九月二十一日

我们一起，在一起

我的MR.GOOD, 变成了我的MR.RIGHT =)

结束了两百六十八天的孤独

我有了你

喜欢有你

喜欢那一天在戏院里你突然的牵起我的手

喜欢睁开眼睛看到你

喜欢你做给我的早餐

喜欢你用命令的语气说：“洗碗！”

喜欢你用疼惜的眼神看我

喜欢你说跟我在一起很舒服
喜欢你向我撒娇

喜欢我的生日会上有你

喜欢你送我的手链

喜欢你为我安排的生日晚餐

喜欢在血拼时看到帅气的衣服会想起你

喜欢你怕我生气的样子=p

喜欢你抱着我让我取暖

喜欢疼你

喜欢想你

有你真好 =)

好像

好像已经没有了文字的灵感
看了看之前写过的blog和文章
发现我的生命里
好像缺少了些什么
可以让我把一切一切的空虚无奈
给发泄出来

好像已经没有什么事
能过让我尽情的诉说

好像已经没有什么心情
值得让我去描绘

就好像心被挖了一个洞
找不到底
找不到边界
装进了什么东西
都会很快的消失
整颗心空荡荡的
什么都容纳不下

有些朋友说
我很爱笑
说我的笑点很低
无趣的
无聊的
冷的废的
我都会捧腹大笑一餐

有些朋友却说
我很不开心
每一次见到我
总是一副沉重的表情
好像有什么事
藏在心里
想说也说不出来

现在只有一种心情
想闭起眼睛，想好好听一听歌的心情
空空的
惶惶的
晃晃的
那是一种
想休息
想微笑的心情

第两百三十五天了
最长最长的
一段自己坚强
自己努力的路

哪一天
我会把这条路走完
然后发现
他 就在前面迎接我
让我能够安心的靠一靠
安心的休息一下？

还有多少个两百三十五天？

=)

Just so Melbourne =)

hmmm... this gonna be a long post, lol

just played badminton today, i felt so GOOD!! it'd been like AGES ago since the last time i did sport... n now...im falling in love wif it! i m so gonna learn tennis soon! ^^ no longer a lazy-bum-aka-sports-hater!! (hmm... influence of Olympic??lol =p )

Life in Melbourne Uni had been reali hectic.. Assignments, events organizing, events helping up, tests... but of coz... 那是一种一起吃苦的幸福！haha...

there was this Melbourne Uni Overseas Student Service(MUOSS,which keeps me busy all the time =.= ) Intro Night in this restaurant named VONS along elizabeth st, it's nt bad tho, i love it

Tresurer, Liason Director and the Activities Officer ^^

The Outcoming Publicity Director aka Incoming Secretary Kelvin Taing!!

And us, the MUOSS slaves~~ lol

Coming up next, if u can still remember, proudly presenting

the Chinese Theatre Group (CTG) !

Poster run in Boxhill~

Publicity crews~

not forgetting to cam-whore while doing works =p

And yep, the Chinese Music Group (CMG) camp! it was a huge success!! phewwwww~~~ THANKS GUYS! =)

eh hemm... well...not forgetting... u have to go club ONCE IN A WHILE after so much hardworks =p

Billboard during Olympic night!

miss u ah bird!!

yea just so busy
just the life
just so melbourne

= )

BUT OF COZ , i miss malaysia tho ^^

miss my babies~

muaxxxx muaxxxx~~~

and of coz the most important persons in my life, my family =)

Jogoya @ starhill.. owh i love my dad, hehe

posing on the top of KUALA LUMPUR! =p

Dont worry mom, dad

i miss u too =D

now i believe in one thing...

**************************************

as long as u'd started doing something

whether it is successful anot

u will stil get something in return

**************************************

i truly believe that =)

祝福你

i saw them...

sweet and pure, just like any other time when i had u b4

i smiled

i reali did smile =)

u've found ur happiness

the happiness.. that i used to share wif you long time ago

finally,

u'd got someone who worth ur love more than me

im truly... feeling happy for you

at the same time

regretting that i never appreciate it

when u shower all the care and love on me

But im glad.

really glad. =)

我看见了

一张又一张，甜蜜的，纯纯的，就像是很久很久以前，我是你的公主时一样

我笑了

我真的微笑了

因为你找到了

多年以后，找到了你的幸福

那种，曾经属于我的幸福

终于，

你有了那个值得让你去爱的她

我后悔，

没有好好珍惜，一次又一次亲手毁掉

你给我的，满满的疼爱

公主的角色换了

爱来过

那是多久以前的事了？

A post which you don't have to read

supposed to update bout CMG camp which Desmond and I organized b4 holidays, but due to the internet problem here, i hardly upload photos and even hardly sign in MSN!! >"<

oh yea im back in Malaysia!! =)

somehow i miss melbourne loads, why?

something here which disappoints me?
or something over melbourne which is bothering me?

How could i describe the feelings of it? when u get so excited to meet ur old frens but it ended up not as u expected?

i felt reali glad when i heard dis on the phone " SHIAU WEN U R BACK??" , just a simple phrase but i just could taste the appreciation in it.. i would be happy enough to see them, my frens getting surprised wif my return in malaysia, but how disappointing it is when i called, she/he just never pick up, or just ignore my misscall, i could imagine the way she/he goes like "oh shiau wen is back", and then just throw the mobile away and don even bother to give a f*ck on it... well... people change, even when you think u have great and treasurable frenships wif them.

Flipped thru my primary school autograph last nite when i was bored to death but yet couldnt fall asleep. I just realized i reali wasnt an adorable kid since young. Everyone in my class actually didnt like me, and when i complained bout why were there so many rumours and critics bout myself during high school times, and when i thought all of those arisen from jealousy and narrow thoughts of humans, i actually didnt realize there must be something in me which irritates people around...

thinking of the life im having now and the life i used to have, it is a huge difference and i feel so contented for learning so much bout myself. All these while i've been minding everything on surface, i used to think ppl only judge a book by its cover, people judge a person oni by his/her appearance, and so i oni did everything that i could to polish the cover, thinking that people might be pleased with it, but i was just so wrong. Thoughtless people see things oni on surface, but for those who are wise enough, they look into your heart.

Because now, i look into your heart, to judge you.

so wat if the book cover is so old that u don even wish to give a glance on it, so wat if the book cover is so colourless and dull that u just wouldnt get to notice it? there is alwiz someone out there, will open it up and read it if wats written inside worth you an appreciation, as long as the reader feel comfortable reading it.

people like you when they feel comfortable to be wif you
people don just like you bcoz u look very good

Officially, im now so confident to say, "goodbye the old me" =)

最痛的一篇blog

i just feel like

CRYING!!!

cry my grief out
cry my ambiguousness out
cry my inferiority out
cry my yearning out
cry my tears out
cry everything out!

had never been so helpless like this
and when my tarleeeng karen is not here
and when i have no one to talk to
and when my piano is so far away that i cant use it to release everything
and when i cant draw my sadness out as i really don kno wat kind of shape i should give it to show how depress i am

anything? anything? anything?

anything can make me laugh??

will i ever laugh happily truly from my heart again?
when i face all these uncertainties,
and all those betrayers out there,
and all these silly thoughts that nobody could understand,
and all this while that i wish myself to be hugged by you...

"you will laugh, when something really funny happens"
the quote from the new movie "Sex and the city"
yea im waiting, waiting for that something that is really funny...
to make myself really really laugh out loud...

a square screen in front of me

a huge stack of notes on the table

a pair of trembling hands on the keyboard

a whole list of emo songs

a strong ache on my heart

a cup of tears flowing on my fingers

a desire for love



and YOU out there

can u hear the pain from me?

悲

改不了，怎么都改不了

他说：“别难过，你还有我这个朋友”

她说：“他说，他不喜欢你。”

背叛，憎恨，嫉妒，虚伪，心寒

这个女生，已经尝试过，努力过

但从来没被认同过

江山易改，本性难移

她恨，

小时候不听妈妈话

长大后不听爸爸劝

懂事后才怨

亡羊补牢，根本于事无补

请相信她，

她真的在努力

只希望，

她身边的朋友

不再埋怨，不再讨厌，不再投诉，不再背叛

如果决定了留在她身边

就好好的在她身边

慢慢的看她改变

给她一次机会

不要就这样走开

她

知错

但没辙

她真的

很想要大家的认同

认同她

真的努力过





我真的真的

在很努力的变得开心

Anyone staying? =)

she walks away

he walks away

they walked away

Like a random walk, u can never expect when are they going to depart

entering my life

and then leaving

but as long as you stay

im all fine. =)

Highly recommend this song： 最美的痕迹，by 柯有伦。

坚强对我来说是种奢侈病
未来的路总是毫不确定
人总是喜欢着欺骗自己
把所有的痛全部都埋在心里
把悲伤变成一首浪漫歌曲
镜子里面现在只剩自己
忽然天空下了一场好大的雨
它好像慢慢地把我打醒
谢谢你在我生命里留下了最深的痕迹
我们还是不相信 永远还是不能确定
谢谢你在我生命留最美的痕迹
我们还是不相信 永远还是不能确定

把悲伤变成一首浪漫歌曲
镜子里面现在只剩自己
忽然天空下了一场好大的雨
它好像慢慢地把我打醒
谢谢你在我生命里留下了最深的痕迹
我们还是不相信 永远还是不能确定
谢谢你在我生命留最美的痕迹
我们还是不相信 永远还是不能确定
抱着你才会看见的奇迹
oh~要怎么才能继续
靠近 靠近 oh~
谢谢你在我生命里留下了最深的痕迹
我们还是不相信 永远还是不能确定
谢谢你在我生命留最美的痕迹
我们还是不相信 永远还是不能确定
谢谢你~谢谢你~真的只想说 *=)

Random talks on this random day

somehow someone since some time earlier named me as 小绵羊 (little sheep)

and so this someone on some random days drew this on some random papers

Just in case u cant see the chinese words up there, it is "呕水-ing" with 3 disgusted faces. drawn by this "someone" =.=...

well.. but i still assume i m a cute 小绵羊 like this, wakakaka...

Ans so randomly i told this "someone" a story..

my memories..

This girl was crying, during a rainy day, coffee on the table, tears dropping onto the books she was holding...

And so her bf drew this on her book

(something like this, altho this drawings is spoilt by the blue pen writings of that "someone" =.=)

then this girl smiled.. but her bf started to cry...
she asked him why
he said " coz i feel useless, u can smile wif this lil thing i do for you, but yet i alwiz make u cry "

[END]

Someone out there knows im talking bout him =)

Well that was just some random memories, which doesn't reali bother me now, i live well *grin*

Then, I sacrificed my studying time, just to go out and meet my FIRST fren in MELBOURNE, Proudly presenting... SAM!!! ^^



We walked along collins street, and saw this beautiful open-air cafe/bar, then we went in, the atmosphere was pretty good. Had a good chat wif this first fren in Melbourne. Never seen him for ages, miss him loads, lol


The Liquor Coffee (Baileys-Latte) that i ordered, doesnt it look good? it was nice, special enough =D



Recalling when i first came Melbourne... so homesick and lonely...


Then i met this fren in Melbourne Airport, SAM! we did alotsa crazy things together while exploring Melbourne, basically we sticked wif each other almost every day of the first few weeks when we were still so new to this strange city... kinda sweet memories wif this fren tho =)


We went to night market

"Tried" to go clubbing but we lined up for 3 hours and didnt get to get in at last, LOL



And he brought me to eat souvlaki, and laughed at the way i ate it, lol


well, i just love my watch and my hair, wakakakka

That's bout it, wasted my whole weekend without studying =.=

gonna be so dead for exam >"<

The young lil SHIAU WEN, lol

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!! if it isnt bcoz CK suddenly sent me all these old photos tat i had before, i reali cannot remember i used to look like this!!!!!!!!

this one look disgusting to me =.= oooo childhood... lol

the slimmest i used to be (2004) =(
WHY LOOK SO DIFFERENT ONE???????????? >"<>

瑞丽呈现：wen说，现在没人敢追求我！

瑞丽magazine on sales!

2 different version of covers and come and listen to the celebrity's talk

Wen a.k.a 小Q : 现在没人敢追求我！ (nobody has the courage to win me now!)

Selling oni at $20 ! grab them in any bookstores nearby! be quick as the demand is high!



LOL

im just too stress i think, lol, thanks CK for the photos~ hahaha, miss you~

"your boyfren is so lucky" ?

it was a patchy rainy day yesterday morning

raining in melbourne is reali rare, and so i don haf an umbrella actually, who knows it will rain so heavily during those hours when i was rushing to uni for classes

so i ran out to tram stop in rain, thought of getting down at 7-11 to get an umbrella, who knows they dont sell umbrella =.=

so i tram back to uni again and stoned at the tram stop coz i couldnt get out of there since its raining cats and dogs *roll eyes*

and suddenly i heard this...

"it's freezing~ go home, don stay here and catch cold~" and then i saw this police officer/official/person-who-checks-our-tram-tickets-all-in-a-sudden waving his hands on me.

"nah i have classes and i need to go to uni" i replied and pointed to the uni

"oh skip it then, it is so cold out here! HAHAHA" he was laughing himself and i was like "hehehe yea yea.."

there is no one else in the tram stop at that time, so i couldnt ask anyone else bout tis but him
"Do u kno where can i get umbrella around here?"

"oh.... not here..." wif disappointed look and so do i.
"eh wait, hang on girl~ wait for me here" and then i saw him went off to sumwhere, i didnt reali care so i just continue stoning and wait for the rain to stop.

suddenly, i heard him shouting from far
" hey GIRL! it's 5 dollars for an umbrella, do u wan it?"

i looked to the direction of the voice and i saw him opposite the road under the rain! Of coz i nodded my head, i need the umbrella!!

then i saw him ran to a convenient store in rain, got an umbrella out, and ran back to the this tram stop in rain again...

*TOUCHED*

n then yep, i handed him 5 bucks and so i got the umbrella! just when i was thinking, "australians are so helpful and warm-hearted", the police officer/official/person-who-checks-our-tram-tickets-all-in-a-sudden said this:

"your boyfren is so lucky" and he smiled at me.

"no i don haf a bf, LOL"

"oh REALLY? good... it's good.."

and i smiled

"good for me" he continued.

and then he laughed.

LOL, there was the oni thing i could do, but i kno he was just kidding, haha

anyway, it was a lucky day ^^